Wednesday, May 19, 2010

More than once in a while ...

I wonder why I'm here.

Taking to myself.

In a place accessible to lord-knows-who.

I ask myself, 'Why is it, year after year, I bother trying to start conversations few ever join?'

I know it's because of her ...

dirtgirl

and because of him ...

crusty boy

Because, despite our differences in thought and self expression, we are not alone in our experiences. Even though it feels like it most days.

I'm just trying to get it down and put it place where I can't lose it.

7 comments:

mynonurbanlife said...

Sometimes I wish I got more feedback (and way less spam), but I long ago decided that the time I spent spreading the word, linking back, blogrolling and all that was just better spent thinking and maybe writing, and not worrying about it when I didn't. Ultimately, I decided that I was just writing for myself, like I used to do in a journal (though my journals aren't even as entertaining as my blog, so just imagine). I read every entry (through RSS, not always a site visit), and enjoy these little glimpses into your life.

toyfoto said...

I feel the same way, I just have to remind myself every so often that I'm not really alone.

TZT said...

Me too. On all counts.

I also sometimes hear that blogger makes commenting too hard. Been contemplating a shift to Wordpress.

Cara said...

I might not always comment...but I check daily for new stories and photos.

As for the kids, they're incredibly lucky to have you doing this. They have a growing book of their childhood waiting for them that's humorous at times, poignant at others. What a gift.

MJ said...

I feel that way so often. I always keep blogging (despite few comments) because it's the only baby book I've ever kept. I don't like it when there are too many holes.

I love what you write here and your photography inspires me to take better (and more) pictures of my daughter.

Kcoz said...

I most always try to leave a comment, even if the subject may not be something that I’m all that interested with, especially when I see a post that has taken you much time to create and I see no one has posted a comment…It is my way of encouraging you.
I enjoy your writing style and your photography skills, and how the combination of the two make everyday life fascinating…watching your family grow and deal with the complications, joys, and changes that may arise is actually a breath of fresh air from the other depressing real world problems.

Later…

toyfoto said...

I do appreciate your encouragement. However I don't want anyone to feel they need to encourage me. I write here, mostly, because I feel complelled to keep track of these moments for myself. I hope my children will read this, but I know it's possible they won't. I also I think my ego takes a hit from time to time, but it's usually the result of a confluence of other things.

Mostly I'd like to lose my vanity and the site meter.